Kris “Kdub” Williams, a popular YouTube theologian known for sermon critiques, has acknowledged engaging in an “emotional affair” that contributed to the breakdown of his marriage.
Williams, whose “All Things Theology” channel shed 1,600 subscribers in the past month — down to 87,400 subscribers from 89,000 in May — was publicly sanctioned by Heritage Grace Community Church (HGCC) in Plano, Texas, last month.
The Reformed Baptist congregation said Williams refused church discipline over an “online affair” he is alleged to have had with a woman not his wife. When confronted about resuming contact with that woman, HGCC said, Williams refused “to repent and has instead left his family and is pursuing a divorce from his wife.”
On June 12, Williams confirmed a number of details regarding his alleged behavior.
In a 15-minute YouTube video posted to his channel, Williams addressed his followers directly for the first time since the HGCC letter surfaced.
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“Let me first and foremost, say that I’m not innocent of the matter. I’m not a victim,” the video creator said. “I have sinned . . . I engage(d) in an emotional affair.”
Williams emphasized that his actions did not include a physical relationship.
“I did not have sex with another woman. I was not sending or receiving inappropriate videos, pictures,” he said.
“I didn’t leave for another woman,” Williams said in the video, adding later, “I haven’t met (her). I’ve never had sex with her.”
Now separated from his wife, Williams says he is living with his brother in Texas and trying to recover from what he described as a period of “depression.” He said he struggled to get out of bed and faced waves of criticism online.
“For the last month, I’ve been pretty depressed, fighting, battling. I mean, there’s been days where I haven’t even moved from my bed,” he said. “Don’t feel sorry for me . . . These are what my actions have caused me.”
In a written comment posted below the YouTube video, Williams again said, “I was wrong for having an emotional affair. I make no excuses for this.”
At the same time, he wrote of his desire to remain close to his son.
“I will say, I haven’t abandoned Micah. I see him weekly,” Williams said. “And (I) desire to still be in his life if I’m able to. I love my son.”
He added, “Unfortunately, there were many problems in the marriage. I’m willing to take responsibility for my part I played in it. Please forgive me all. But unfortunately, this relationship is ending. I won’t give the details. Please respect my privacy.”
Williams’ confessional video was first reported in a news article at MinistryWatch.
The disclosure follows a wave of online speculation, videos, and social media commentary—some of it from former friends and ministry peers—that Williams said compounded the pain of his personal failure. Though he refrained from naming anyone, he said he was disappointed in how some handled the situation.
“People who I would consider friends (were) making videos and coming to certain conclusions based on speculations,” he said. “But it was quite interesting to see people I considered friends, thought was friends, make videos (and) never reach out,” he said.
Williams acknowledged the hypocrisy of his past criticism of others and said the experience has given him perspective.
“I definitely wanted grace, so I should be gracious to others when they’re going through personal issues,” he said.
Despite the scandal, Williams said he has not abandoned his Christian faith.
“I haven’t given up on Christ. I’m still reading my Bible. I’m praying, still seeking the Lord,” he said. “I do have anxiety right now about being in a church . . . but I don’t want to be away from the church.”
Williams also expressed uncertainty about the future of his online presence.
“Will I come back on YouTube? We’ll see . . . maybe in a few months, maybe in a year, maybe never,” he said. “Honestly, I’m just thinking about bettering myself as a Christian and trying my best to seek the Lord and pick up the broken pieces.”
Williams concluded the video by asking for prayer and reiterating his goal now is spiritual restoration, not public vindication.
“Despite what many may think, ultimately, at the end of the day, I have to still run the race despite the YouTube comments,” he said.
Mark A. Kellner is a reporter based in Mesquite, Nevada. He most recently covered statewide elections for the New York Post and was for three years the Faith & Family Reporter for The Washington Times. Mark is a graduate of the University of the Cumberlands and also attended Boston University’s College of Communication.
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This makes me so sad! I really like his videos especially the sound tracks he would edit in they made me laugh each time! it’s crazy and makes me so sad how many Christians are being exposed for their sin.
Part of the “Reformed” crowd? I am not surprised as the legalism I have seen coming out of this group just consistently produces endless hypocrisy. They are rude, arrogant and make an idol out of their theology. They are like a school of piranhas that spend most of their time biting other leaders in other theological camps but they just cannot help themselves occasionally devouring someone in their own camp. The total lack of humility just means they only care about the fruits of the Spirit in others. They make no effort to produce them themselves.
The great problem with such as these is that they are the same religious hypocrites that Jesus condemned plainly stating, “How are you going to avoid hell?” Many years ago I had an experience where I was shown a cell in hell reserved for such goats like these. It was the most real thing I have ever experienced and very sobering. Click on my name here if you want to read/listen to it.
Scandal is no sectarian specialty—sin bites in every camp. If Reformed theology troubles you, confront it head-on. But to use a brother’s ruin and shattered family as an “I told you so”—is that not the very piranha frenzy you decry?
As a non-Calvinist, I have to ask: Here, who is biting, and who is bitten?